my brothers bday

last 16th, i turned 22 and a month..hehe! and it was my big brothers' bday..so, mlmnye, my father brought us out, makan2 kat hartz chicken buffet..hehe! of course la nadia join skali..

damn! lupa nak transfer gmbr masuk laptop, klu x, ada dh kat cni..hehe! nak tunjuk mknn2 yg lazat2 tu...huhu~marvellous!

makan kat hartz, teringat balik kenangan2 kat mrsm lu..tiap kali hujung minggu, klu homeroom nak wat aktiviti, mesti gi keluar makan dan antara tempat pilihan, of course la hartz..haha! even i pn pernah celebrate bday kat hartz bersama my homeroom..time form 1 la..hahaha! ada lagi gmbrnye..muke budak2..seyes, BUDAK..haha!

as i am writing this now, tengah dok lepak2 kt penjuru lab sebab tkt supervisor tgk..hehe! lgpn, bukannya ada keje nak wat..sume org tgh dok lepak lg..ngeh3..

dua ribu sepuluh

akhirnya..dah masuk tahun 2010..td dalam pukul 9 mlm, my family and i buat barbeque ckit2..n celebrate bday nenek ktorg, kalau mengikut ic la..haha! and lainnya tahun ni, sebab ada nadia..hmm..mcm x sangka je barbeque kt umah sendiri pastu ada member uni skali..

hmm..2009..byk kenangan di tahun 2009..(hell yeah!) and some of it are better kept silent..tp antaranya yang ingin dikongsi di sini ialah, antaranya; kepulangan mengejut ke kuching disebabkan h1n1..huhu~ x pernah dibuat dlm sejarah beli tiket on the spot cmtu..thanks abah~ pastu, bwk member2 uni jalan2 kt kuching..it was awesome! berkali2 cubit pipi sendiri bila tgk diorg dok borak2 kt my house nye ruang tamu..another one, is of course, the trip to bangkok..unbelievable! ive been there..haha! pengalaman yang of course x kan dilupakan..sgt2 la best wlpn ada benda yang x diingini berlaku (tp bgs utk dijadikan iktibar) and the most important yang buat xleh nak lupa tu is my bday celebration at bangkok..yela, ntah bla la nak dtg bangkok lagi..so cam sakai la jugak nak sambut kt negara org..haha!

another thing yang wat sejarah di tahun 2009 ni ialah, praktikal..hmm..wlpn most of the practical training is in 2010 but it started in 2009. so, debaran di hari pertama tu la yang xleh nak lupa..nanti bla dh abs praktikal, mesti terkenang2 balik camna hari pertama melapor diri tu..haha!insyaAllah..

so, untuk tahun 2010, saya tidak meletakkan apa2 azam..sejak dari dulu lagi, im not a big fan of this new year resolution thingy..coz i know, im not that motivated to achieve it..just mempunyai beberapa harapan..seperti, harap2 la kehidupan akan menjadi lebih tenang dan kurang bergelora, dapat kerja a.s.a.p lepas abs praktikal so that i can jolly puas2 time my convocation..(hehe!) dan semoga sentiasa sihat dan gumbira di samping berusaha untuk menjadi hamba Allah yang lebih baik..

last but not least, HAPPY NEW YEAR to all!

my bday

my bday was on the 16th..the day i came back from bangkok..hmm..this year bday is different in terms of where and what and also who..haha! i (or should i say we) celebrated it on the rooftop of the building where we stay, 12 am (bangkok time) with 2 cakes and with some new friends..

hihi! thanks guys!! i really appreciated it..u guys are awesome!

then again, i dont know why, i still felt the same..the same feeling as my other bdays..i gues i just havent found the xfactor yet..not that i dont like what they did..i like it very much!!! maybe, as usual, i didnt get what i wish for..what i've dreamt of..every bday, it is like that..always like that...dont mean to regret it..haha!maybe one day, one fine day, i'll get what i really wish for my bday..so, another year older, passed by just like that...

singgah

lama dh x post entry baru..bukan apa, not in the mood for blogging..lgpun, tgh dilanda mcm2 masalah ni..len kali la kot..

anyway, demam bangkok masih x kebah n tesis dh jilid!! yippee!!

bangkok

yeah..i'm finally in bangkok, after going through some probs..hahaha! i brought 2 bags with me..2 luggage bags....haha!and its been 7 days here..baru dpt on9 sebab lecturer die x bagi2 lg account wireless..huhu~ni pun sekejap je kot sebab ada byk turn menunggu..huhu~

hari ketiga g northeast thailand..giler ah, sejuk tmpt tu..x expect pn sesejuk tu..bwk sweater nipis je..so, terpaksa la beli socks n sarung tgn lg..(tmpt tu lebih sejuk dr genting ye..). hari ke-6 baru balik bangkok..on the way, singgah la g tmpt2 menarik, for example, kilang thai silk dan cendawan..kat kilang cendawan something yg sgt2 dielakkan terjadi..huhu~tp, nak wat camana..dh jadik dh..

pastu, hp tercinta jd makin tenat sebab terjatuh dr tingkat 11/12..huhu~nasib bek hidup lagi..hahaha! panjang umur tol hp tu..hahaha!sekarang ni dh hari ke-7 dan esok nak g cwgn kampus kasetsart kat tmpt lain..anyway, i am trying my best to cope with the situation, i mean in terms of food..huhu~setakat ni, mmg vegetarian la..siang tadi pn g grand palace thai..giler cantik..puas ati gak la...

haa...satu lagi..thai ni sgt2 la mementingkan raja die..sana sini nampak gmbr king die terpampang besar2..mana2 bangunan sekalipun..dasat tol tahap kesetiaan die..lagi2 hari tu, 5 dec birthday king die tu..huhu~tp ktorg x dpt tgk celebration die sbb ktorg kt northeast thai dh..

kat sini guna plak kepala dua,so kene beli adapter br dpt gune..huhu~currency kt sini lebih kurg ngan malaysia..kalau die ckp 500 baht maksudnya rm50..dari segi bahasa, setakat ni ok sebab ada student KU yang follow ktorg, so blh la ckp..tp, of course la dh blaja sikit2..hehe! chan kit-eng kun!!

ok la..len kali cte lagi..kang xda benda nak cte plak..la gon..sawatdee ka!!

kenapa?

ntahlah, i also dont know why i put the title as 'kenapa?'..past few days, i was..hmm..how should i say..melalui hari2 yang dirasakan best tp ia telah menyebabkan saya dipenuhi dengan soalan kenapa..

i've decided that, i shall let go but just when i was about to do so, ia dtg balik..mcm tau2 je..hahaha! tiap kali pun jadi mcm ni..bila je rasa nak lupuskan, mesti dtg something yang menghalang daripada berbuat demikian..ini terjadi bukan sahaja apabila ingin membuang barang, tetapi juga manusia..meaning, when i want to forget someone..(sigh)

why i want to do so? sebab saya rasa saya x diperlukan dan saya xda makna pn dalam hidup org tersebut..menyemak je dlm hidup die..so, drpd terus stay on dan rasa malu, bek cabut dulu..then again, terjadi la sesuatu yang menyebabkan saya x jadi untuk berbuat demikian..why???why now?

i really wanted a good explanation..i mean, no more beat around the bush, ckp sorg2, buat andaian sendiri..cakap je straight to the point and end this..what u want and what i want, and what is the real feeling..terseksa tau rasa camni (lama2 leh jd gila kot)

tapi, when it happens, xtau plak nak react mcmana..hahaha!(aku pn bengong gak) bukan apa, there is already an answer and i really wanted to say it out loud but i'm afraid that pisang will berbuah 2 kali..haih~how painfull it was..maybe benda yang diperlukan adalah "masa"..org ckp, time heals..hmm..agree lah jugak cause it does heals me walaupun lama..or perlukah benda lain ditambah sebelum dpt mengakhiri dilema ini..(cewah!)

anyway, i'm happy before and i'm sure i can still handle this..i have friends, i have him and her and him and her and her and also her, so does her and her husband..haha! tapi, betul2 xnak org itu ingat andaian die tu betul..nak je bgtau depan2, tp xleh..belum masanya kot..camne lah die leh buat andaian mcmtu..die really does not have any idea about me..hmm..terkilan gak la ble die fikir mcmtu..tp, :-) je..hahaha!btw, die owes me something..eh, no, a lot of things..

memulakan semula hidup (mcm je)

my life has been hectic since my last post..haha! mcm2 dh terjadi...16hb lepas, balik umah sambil bawak besties upm ni berjalan2 di kuchg, penantian 10 bulan akhirnya berakhir jua..hahahaha! my father, atas rasa kasih sayangnya terhadap kereta barunya, offer himself bwk ktorg jalan2..hahaha!so, dari isnin sampai khamis, bwk diorg jalan..ari khamis, aisyah, nadia, fik, din balik kl..zmah balik ari sabtu..so, zmah la plg beruntung..dpt rasa mcm2, lebih byk dr diorg yg dh balik tu..

ari zmah balik, i was robbed! (itulah benda paling penting yang nak diceritakan..haha!) rasanya kene robbed time kat main bazar kot..tp x perasan..sampaila ktorg turun berjalan kat destinasi berikutnya..rupanya2, my beg kesayangan ditoreh di tepi..2 plak tu..camanalah boleh x perasan..huhu~balik dari anta zmah, terus g balai polis buat repot..ari isnin seterusnya, the day balik kl, bergegas2 buat ic, atm kad n lesen..nasib baik flight petang..haha!of course la ada speech yg panjang dari "yang dipertua"..

haih~ rasa cam memulakan semula hidup je..buat ic, lesen, kad atm..hahahaha!balik je upm, siap2kan tesis before g thailand..haih~ rasa cam x cukup nafas je..terkejar sana sini, dgn urusan nak ke bangkok lg x selesai..pasal bank lg..haih~(istighfar)byk betol dh mengeluh..x baik2...

anyway, i take it positively..ada hikmah di sebalik apa yg berlaku..dpt la kad atm n ic baru yang mmg lama gak dh berniat nak tukar..tp, penat terkejar sana sini..tula masalahnya..dhlah banyak masalah menimpa pulak skrg ni..mmg rasa cam x cukup nafas..banyak tol benda kene fikir..otak pn dh rasa senget dh..haha!

anyway, hidup perlu diteruskan..masalah perlu diatasi..gigih itu penting..haha!